Things I Wish My Teacher Knew

Honestly, I wish my teacher knew nothing or didn’t have to know anything. I love to remain a mystery to people who I am not very familiar with, however since this is an assignment I would like to get a proficient grade on I will complete it to the best of my ability. Which brings me to the first thing that you need to know about me. Throughout my life, I have seen many people throw away their future, which seemed very bright. These decisions have affected me personally. Therefore I always strive to be the best academic student I can be in hopes that I will not turn out the same as some people around me and in my family. Sometimes, I want to be too perfect and get very upset when I do not succeed. One time I took a math test over a lesson that I might not have worked very hard on or didn’t understand. Long story short, I failed. As you can imagine I was completely devastated. I had gotten a lower grade than anticipated and I cried. My perfectionistic personality trait is both a blessing and a curse for me. A blessing is that it helps me see my potential and live up to it, and it is a curse based on the fact that when I do not do well I am too hard on myself.

When describing my home life to the majority of people I meet, it is almost always a perfect life. My parents are great, all of my siblings are successful, I am always doing wonderful, and lots of other idealistic statements that are mostly far from the truth. The truth of the matter is that I do not have a perfect home life or anything close to that. I will say that my family is broken just like any other family but we are good at covering it up. The Williams Family looking in from the outside might look like a dream to many people. Inside it, there is much pain and suffering. I struggle with my family a great deal because I am the mediator between people that are arguing or sometimes perceived to be the perfect child of the family even though I’m not. At times all of these things can get very stressful. Me being the type of person that I am, I won't talk about things that stress me out until it’s too late. I will say though, that I still do love and am very thankful for my family because they have shaped me into who I need to be.

In my family, we all love to play sports. I play basketball along with my older brother, and one of my older sisters. My other older sister stopped playing basketball in eighth grade and switched to volleyball. I tried playing volleyball for two years but it just was not my favorite. For some reason, basketball has been really the only sport I have stuck with. It is hard for me to play because I am constantly being compared to my older sister Priscilla. She is a senior now and going to a division-1 school to play basketball. That is my goal one day for the future. Since I have not reached that yet I am constantly criticized for not being as good as my sister. At times, this can be very frustrating for me because I still have four years to get better than her, but all people see is we both are sisters so we should both play exactly the same. I also feel as though I am in her shadow, seen as the “little sister”. However, if I keep working hard and staying focused I know that one day I will be better than my sister and be seen as myself, not just someone's sister. 

This paper was not as painful to write as I thought it would be, so I’m glad that we had this assignment. All of the aspects of my life that I discussed are a part of me and have shaped me into the person I am. I look forward to this class and what you have planned for us.